I have already written about this (please see post: 104a. Turning off “pause”), but I’ve recently had a new insight that I wanted to share.
Now, why is it so hard to turn off pause permanently?
Because, our mind constantly changes focus, meaning different things continuously come into perspective. One moment you may be thinking about something, a few seconds later, about something else.
Regarding pause, one moment you may be turning off a specific pause, few seconds later, another pause pops up in your mind, requesting your attention. The mind is a funny thing.
Also our energy level varies, meaning sometimes we have more energy to observe and change our mind, sometimes less.